Somewhere in this glittering slum
Our dying creative sides have bled
I wonder what we all have become
Ideals vanished from everyone’s head
It seems the change will never come
But we’ll make some money instead
And when we’ve gathered a huge sum
We’ll retire alone and lay down dead
LATE NIGHT MEMORIES
Darkness, liquid black
Night bulb, pale blue
Numbers, bright red
The digital clock
Time passing by
A stare, mindless
A wait, timeless
Ringing echoes
From a distant past
Forgotten
Whispers, sweet
Promises and lies
Laughter, breathless
A dance of desire
A ring of fire
Words, spontaneous
Dreams, contagious
Fears and doubts
Intoxicated
Souls, merged
Words, unheard
Breaking away
Floating on silence
Never to stay
Fading away
FRIENDLY ABSTRACT DREAMS
And she dances beautifully
Before the final sunrise
Caressing the wind and starlight
Doors of perception wide open
Ends meeting ends
From the depths of her soul
Greeting the late night breeze
Here and there and everywhere
In silently whispering winds
Joins another dream
Kayaking in an endless stream
Lazing over the clouds
Most vivid imagination
Never aims for a destination
Only yet another trance
Put gently on her thoughts
Queen of a brave new world
Raised from a sleepless night
She keeps on dancing
Till the end of mortal time
Under early morning sunlight
Views from another world
Where her secrets are told
Xeroxed and scattered before
Your friendly abstract dreams
Zooming out to nothingness
UNKNOWN
The atrocities they propagate
The murders they perpetuate
Beyond the hatred they’ve grown
What’s left is still unknown
Their kids they gladly sacrifice
Not for a moment do they realize
When young bodies are blown
What’s left is still unknown
Fireworks of exploding bombs
Roaring rockets and blazing guns
After the night sky is shone
What’s left is still unknown
In the labyrinths of graves
Where sleep all their braves
Beneath every unmarked stone
What’s left is still unknown
UTOPIA
There's a street
Where lovers meet
And there's a town
Where love is found
There's a place
So full of grace
And there's a night
When dreamers unite
So let me take u down
To a never ending town
So let us fly away
Let moonlight shine our way
There's a time
Where laughter shines
Once in a while
There's a genuine smile
So what it takes to fly away
So what it takes to be the way
We really are ...
There's a street
Where lovers meet
There's a town
Where love is found
So let me take u down
To a never ending town
So let us fly away
Let moonlight shine our way
PARADOX
You painted my soul
In colorful shades of gray
You washed my heart
With the acid rain of love
You blew up my mind
With insane side of sanity
And I was left nowhere
With nowhere to turn to
Standing still, spinning
In the cold warmth of dreams
I chased all the sounds
Of silent songs around
It dawned like the midnight
In darkness of sunlight
And the shadows crept
While standing still
Your soul shone as bright
As the darkest of night
I took comfort in fears
Found happiness in tears
I melted your heart
To the softness of stone
You were there for me
As real as a statue
I could read your mind
As some encrypted language
And I found everything
That i could not find
I feel dead while alive
So farewell my friend
It's just a new beginning
Which they call the end
I hear screams of silence
On the radio waves in air
As the soul loses relevance
The life gets more unfair
I lay down on my back
With dreams of waterfalls
Face the loneliness attack
Closed behind my iron walls
Like some restless fireflies
In the darkness of my mind
Broken promises and lies
Echo pain as they unwind
A strange unknown feeling
Is torturing me inside
Like a tired slave kneeling
And killing all his pride
I'll break all my chains
With a strong urge to fly
Leaving my mortal remains
To be born again as I die
SURREAL THOUGHTS
The mirrors break free
From the walls
And they chase us down
In the city halls
And they show us our
Real faces
As the talks turn sour
Over arms races
The fear is so real
Will we ever smile again?
Will the world ever heal
From this endless pain?
Surrealistic shadows
Climb up my bed
As I sleep in the meadows
Of my dreams instead
Free from the freedoms
That keep us in chains
I have my own reasons
Idealism remains
This life is a beauty
Why should it ever end?
The fabric of reality
Why can’t it bend?
DARKNESS OF LIGHT
Our love remained
A late night walk
On a lonely path
Under pale streetlight
Out of everyone's sight
We walked alone
Silently into the night
Like a shade of blue
Painted on red
It remained forever
A contrasting illusion
Like stones under feet
Ideals met defeat
Dreams slipped away
From those trembling hands
Like the desert sands
You looked at me
Your face was a mirror
But a blurred one
With cracks in it
And I saw a reflection
Of all of my thoughts
In a distorted fashion
Behind a curtain of mist
Expectations had drawn
As we sat together
And waited for dawn
With the first rays of sun
As the new day begun
I saw you fading away
With the shadows of doubts
I was left with myself
In the darkness of light
UNWANTED CHANGES
Broken wings and tear-stained eyes
They suffer in the silence of night
Burning earth and blood-red skies
There’s no promised land in my sight
Revolution fades away
On the television shows
In the new inquisition play
Mindless talk-show hosts
So let me smile
For a while
Till the sunlight ends
So let me live
Till the fabric of
Reality bends
Once again
Constant pain
Piercing sounds of silence
Breaking through my ears
Endless cycle of violence
Mankind lives in fears
In a constant relapse
Intellectual evolution ends
Ideals crumble and collapse
By the modern trends
So let me play
For a day
Till the playgrounds burn
So let me run
Till life takes
Another senseless turn
Once again
It’s all insane
CONFUSIONS
She’s confusing
She’s confused
When she was a child
She was abused
She’s confusing
She’s confused
She is taking revenge
I’m being used
She’s just so confusing
She’s just so confused
She’s confusing
She’s confused
She offered me herself
But I refused
She’s confusing
She’s confused
She cracks corny jokes
I’m not amused
She’s just so confusing
She’s just so confused
GO AWAY
Let’s go bowling
In the corridors
Of a mental asylum
Let’s go howling
Swinging mindlessly
On a pendulum
Let’s go away
Let’s not stay
Go away
Not stay
[Will you be my prey?]
When the lights go out
We scream and shout
Changing traffic lights
In the candlelight
NERVOUS BREAKDOWN
Come on now
Chew the stress
Spit it out
In her mental dustbin
Come on now
See emotions undress
Split yourself up
In a bipolar sin
Come on now
Taste your success
Crush a can
In a corporate dream
Come on now
Melt in a caress
Feel the warmth
You better come in
Nervous breakdown
Coming to a theater near you
Nervous breakdown
Coming to your town
Nervous breakdown
Smell it going through
Nervous breakdown
You are just a clown
Nervous breakdown
I'm loving it
Nervous breakdown
Just do it!
[Whisper: You know what it is all about, or do you?]
ABOUT A NIGHT
As I hold you tightly in my arms
And think in these silent hours
The darkness of night engulfs
This empty loneliness of ours
The closet of memories opens
And all the phantoms escape
They laugh and scream around me
And fade into the landscape
I wonder why she had to leave
Something must have been wrong
I wonder what her last name was
But I remember her favorite song
I wonder why last night that man
Died a famous death on screen
I wonder why they saved him not
How painful it would have been
I wonder why the presidents lie
Yet enjoy their term in power
I wonder if it stays so sweet
Or in the end it does turn sour
I wonder when the stocks will rise
And the market will celebrate
I wonder if it all really matters
Or is it just another useless wait
I wonder why I can’t sleep tonight
Although awake I don't want to stay
I wonder what the next day will bring
And when is the next public holiday
So let me sleep with you tonight
Holding you closer, nice and slow
But I don’t think you understand
Because you are just a fluffy pillow
Can't forget her lovely smiles
Always there to make my day
Can't forget her lovely eyes
Always there with a lot to say
Time flies away when she is there
In every endless summer night
Sleep goes out to sleep somewhere
When she shines on me her light
At times when I feel down and low
Her warmth my heart wants to meet
And when her gentle words do flow
Her presence makes me feel complete
With her I want to see sun rise
And set to welcome evenings blue
For always like a sweet surprise
She can make my dreams come true
I hope that she will light my way
And we will make a home together
Thinking of her I always pray
May she keep smiling forever
Here sitting alone all night long
All I did was to think of her
Now I would dedicate this song
To this dream in life's cold winter
BLUE MOON
I was walking all alone
Under a deep blue moon
Shadows of the night
Sounds of the silence
Haunting my mind and soul
Whispering the words untold
Fears creeping up my brain
I came across a woman
With eyes of stone
The deep blue moon shone
As brightly as ever
That moment felt like forever
She stood still and stared
Deep in unknown somewhere
Like an old Greek statue
Like some forgotten virtue
Something drew me near
Her deep innermost fear
Burnt out in her own fire
She had in her no desire
Her breath was cold
Her skin was pale
With some dreams now stale
She stared somewhere
The moon kept shining
The night kept silent
Something deep inside
Made me get closer
In what still felt like forever
And I kissed her lips
Cold as ice, yet dry as sand
I heard distant sounds
Of time’s silent wailing
Of life’s destined fading
The world in lament
The night kept moving
Like an old traveler tired
Like a slowly sinking ship
As I left her standing there
With a sweet bitter taste
Of her lifeless lips
Of the death’s last kiss
But the deep blue moon
Kept shining forever
For someone’s life eclipsed
For what the time had missed
YOU
Like untimely snowflakes you fall
In the waiting palm of my hand
With its warmth you melt and crawl
And drop by drop absorb in the land
With every tick of clock I witness
In slow centuries of time you move
As my soul you unknowingly possess
With some ancient unheard groove
Across lush green valleys you hover
In waterfalls your songs you sing
When starry night skies take over
Like wind chimes in silence you ring
In steel strings of guitar I hear
The rhythm of your heartbeat play
Making shadows of night disappear
With me your thoughts always stay
Somewhere inside like a wanted dream
In depths of my mind you live
Like a pure fresh water stream
Morning dewdrops to flowers you give
In every corner, in every street
After dark clouds and endless rain
When blue skies and sunshine meet
You smile like a rainbow again
DEATH OF A SOUL
There's a sinking soul
In the dark liquid night
There's a story untold
Of illusions and fright
There's some light ahead
Emanating deep blue glow
Like shadows of the dead
Dancing quiet and slow
And then darkness within
Possesses some empty life
As all lost memories spin
Deepening internal strife
Reaching a blind turn
On the life's road ahead
The soul will always burn
With empty roads to tread
Waking to another dream
In echoes of silent cries
Hearing a distant scream
At last, the soul dies
Some dreams forgotten
Lost in the haze of time
Sing to the music of the past
Wander alone all night
Dancing to the spells of
Some of those yesterdays
When the pale shades
Of autumn
Get over my soul
And the sky is all
Colored in pastels
I love the sound
Of falling leaves
Identify myself
With their loneliness
Who are left behind
Waiting to die
And I love to hear
The sounds of rain
And the sounds of night
When they get together
And ignite
My soul and mind
And I love to sit
Watch the rain pour down
Hear the sound of my pen
As someone writes this song
In the dim light
Of a street lamp away
The wind is silent
It whispers not
Just listens to the rain
As it cleanly drops
The clouds are crying
I lend them my tears
And I lend them my pain
That now ground absorbs
And the autumn trees
Get a taste of it
And they live again
Before you lose your wisdom
And you lose your sense
Before you perish us all
In the name of self-defense
Won’t you call me home?
I want to go with my own
Before you make insanity proud
With venom of mushroom cloud
When you take away
Shining dreams of many
For egos of the few
In democracy or tyranny
Won’t you let me know?
Before we commit suicide
When we freeze our blood flow
Under mushroom cloud’s shadow
Ashes of bodies and trees
Won’t give anyone cover
We will all be so equal
When the game is all over
Won’t you reassure me?
That you also want us free
From explosions and blinding glares
From mushroom cloud’s nightmares
Leave all your papers
Leave all your files
Leave all your folders
Stop traveling miles
It’s so very boring
I am fed up of it
In my frame of mind
This life doesn’t fit
Let’s get out of here
Sit under a tree
Absorb cozy sunlight
Breathe cool breeze
Have nothing to do
You feel so free
Then in front of you
A white rabbit you see
From his eyes it seems
As if he just can’t wait
He says, “Oh dear,
I am too late”
Takes his small watch out
What is life all about?
As in sunlight
In a metallic glow
You move on
Can’t stop and wait
Follow him to his rabbit hole
Jump in…as you dream away
Having found life
Having found the way
Fade, fade into black
The evening of memories
Through the misty mountains
Through flowers and fountains
Fade, fade into black
Through this textured sky
Signifying life as a lie
I am fading with you
The evening of memories
I want to reverse the clock
To years back today
To the days of fantasy
When I used to play
In my orchard with magic friends
I always used to dream away
To the other side of life
Some new dimension of soul
I’m so sad this evening
I don’t seem to help it
That’s why I am smiling
Falling deep down in a pit
I didn’t follow the white rabbit
Haven’t seen any mad hatter
But still…
There are tears in my eyes
But they just wouldn’t slip out
Why can’t I touch the skies
Lost childhood is this all about
The innocence is dead
Soul has lost to the head
And I just don’t seem to get it
There is intense noise all around me
Shrieks and screams always surround me
There is terrible darkness in my sight
Where shadows tremble with fright
I can hear no more, not even my thoughts
I can see no more, not even my dreams
Now my eyes have absorbed it all
Waiting for my soul’s last call
My mind has turned to a black hole
I’ll spark my fantasy and burn my soul
Lose my head…lose control
Oh my dear empty can of soft drink
I love the sound you make
When I throw you down in the dustbin
Remember how they packed you
Remember how they wrapped you
Remember how they filled you
With a sizzling drink for all
You were so proud that day
And now in trash you fall
Oh my dear empty can of soft drink
As you tickle, bounce and settle
There is something you make me think
We are all like you
And the lives we go through
Are very much like you
We are all packed
We are all wrapped
Commercialized on TV
Our souls wanting to break free
Like you, we are consumed
And while they extract all our skills
And when the deadly machine kills
They don’t bother for our selves
Because we were bought from the shelves
And it was supposed to be the usual way
To consume us and then to throw us away
In my imagination
I had a gun in my hand
Breaking every window
Smashing every door on the land
I killed the man
I killed the beast
I killed the king
I killed the priest
In my own way
Because it was my day
I broke my chains
The causes of my pains
Restless night…
Fades into a hazy morning
And in this haze
Is a strange dream lost
I keep looking for it
In the pastel shades
Of shadowy clouds
So deep I stare
That I lost myself
In the pale sunlight
Lost in the valley
Of wandering dreams
Cold waves of fears
Dance and run through me
I am afraid of the fears
That my shadows will chase me
That my shadows will chase me
Independence, what independence?
Is this what we have all fought for
Is that all what we all dreamed of
That summer day was sad
That night was blood red
When a dream had broken
A revolution tamed
And the truth unspoken
In our eyes remained
Freedom, liberty, Independence
Keep these sugarcoated lies away
I'm tired of changing my masters
Now you find someone else to play
Your dirty game of politics
All your plans, all your tricks
A few million people were fooled
Sacred land of martyrs was ruled
For decades by a brutal institution
Which always killed the constitution
The dreams were dead
Truth remained unsaid
And so was killed a revolution
Through their blood-stained hands
Through their guns and evil plans
Freedom, liberty, Independence
Keep these sugarcoated lies away
I'm tired of changing my masters
Now you find someone else to play
Your dirty game of politics
All your plans, all your tricks
Still feudal lords rule their own empires
And Industrialists act like vampires
So where is gone our paradise?
Is it a nightmare or just surprise?
And we have to serve the servants
And no one tames military serpents
Where dirty game is still played
By foreign masters are still obeyed
Where democracy is pirated
Where human rights are violated
There our revolution was murdered
And all our radicals surrendered
Or killed themselves or died fighting
No more storms no more lightening
Freedom, liberty, Independence
Keep these sugarcoated lies away
I'm tired of changing my masters
Now you find someone else to play
Your dirty game of politics
All your plans, all your tricks
PASSION
Hold on to my dream,
My pretty child of love
And let me throw you down
From the highest mountain
And let me drag you high
To the farthest sky
And let me kiss you till
I absorb your last drop
Let me grow my nails
Let me sharpen my teeth
Till I can scratch you deep
And satisfy my thirst
By your fresh red blood
Till I can chew your mind
And get a taste of life
Let me hold you tight
And with a dynamite
Let me explode our selves
Into the chaos of love
Let our million pieces
Fly like free doves
In the heavens and seduce
The angels and innocent souls
And then we will produce
Anarchy in the holy skies
Explosions of sweet lies
SHE PASSED BY
And she passed by
But her soul
Passed through me
Out of the wilderness
Of a haunted valley
Deserted and stoned
And left for me
A strange stare
Painfully sweet
And a scent of desires
That I absorbed
I, spell-bound,
Had gone to the skies
And was thrown down
By her magical eyes
Sparkling in the night
Like candles that light
The omens of spell
For the magic called love
TRIBUTE TO A MADMAN
The madman walks and walks forever
With all his ice and fire together
He roams and laughs and shouts wherever
He raises a rebellious banner
In his own outrageous manner
Here he is the lord
Here he is the god
Here he is the king
For no one dares
And no one cares
For whatever he may sing
Here all play their own
Self-formulated games
With their flesh and their bones
They all play insane
And they fear likes of them
But he fears himself
He knows this way he can contain
Inside him his burning hell
So his dreams he sell
And is paid off well
Then the madman laughs
And the madman cries
And the madman sings
And the madman dies
And that's the end
Of all the boundaries
Set on his worldly being
And his burning insanity
HOLY NIGHT
In this silent night
In this holy night
Under shadows of stars
As you sleep somewhere
Somewhere so far away
As you close your eyes
And you dream away
I'll be thinking of you
I'll be knitting for you
The sweetest of dreams
With these moonlit beams
And with needle of pain
To the loss that is gain
I'll steal all the stars
Those that lit up my eyes
Those that lit up these nights
And in your deepest dreams
I'll cast a spell on you
And sprinkle all my tears
Over valley of your dreams
They'll become dew drops
And absorb in your soul
To make up for you
A fresh new morning
DECAY
It’s so damn relaxing
To see myself dead
And it’s so amusing
To decompose like this
Lying naked in dark
Since I left all my odors
And they got absorbed
In all these flowers
Now they too smell awful
Just like eggs rotten
Just like vows forgotten
They have lost their color
They have lost their scent
Now I can feel the worms
Eating my poisonous flesh
Their small hairy legs
Touching my dead skin
It must have been
A warm summer gesture
A thrilling sensation
They must have got
Their own good reasons
And it’s so amusing
To feel the die
In my rotten skull
I lost all serenity
Since the part of flesh
From my mouth decayed
Since then on my face
A smile has stayed
My eyes wide open
They are pale and dry
They can no more cry
But still they stare
Somewhere deep in sky
Having lost their glare
And still I lie
For I had to die
In my very own fashion
Dreaming the change
Dreaming revolution
DESPAIR
All are sick, all so dirty
Everyone is a lethal virus
Living in dirt for survival
So do you think still I
Should ever so hard try
To take myself high
Above the farthest sky
Now I am wondering why
I want so much to fly
I hate to see them replicate
I hate to see them duplicate
The rotten structure stumbles
The worn-out culture fumbles
And yet it all stands
They never seem to fall
Nothing to get excited for
No one to give the final call
SUICIDE
In the dark unholy house of chaos
Lives monster called self-destruction
He has survived all the human ages
Every lord has been giving him wages
Its so amusing that it makes me laugh
To see how weak is the guy called god
I cut my throat, see blood flow down
As darkness snatches from light its crown
As I dip my pen in my own red vial
I don't want any more self-denial
The skies are empty, the space is void
You were a lie that could not survive
Ready to write a note before I die
Now I can hear my own last cry
CULTURAL BLACKOUT
Young man shut your lips
Don't smile don't talk
You will fall to dirty tricks
You will get struck by politics
Nobody will help you
Write this song
Nobody lives in the world
Where you belong
The critics will smash it
The mullahs will trash it
The government will ban you
Over the state owned media
And if you ever think
And if you dare try
They will cut your wings
Before you learn to fly
All you'll be left with
Would be your tears
You'll shout and cry
But no one will hear
So young man, stop
Don't write any more
Throw your pen in the dustbin
Get out for the day's work
Misfits like you can never win
I WAS TRYING
I was trying
To reach out to the stars
I was trying
To heal my soul's scars
I was trying
To fill my emptiness with pain
To walk warm and dry
Through the poison rain
I was trying
To wipe sunlight from my body
I was trying
To hide away from my shadow
I was trying
To wipe the tears
From the petals of rose
I was trying
To kiss the lips of the night
To get a taste of life
I was trying…
AN ACUTE SENSE OF PAIN
I don't care if it bleeds
I don't care if it hurts
I don't mind if it stinks
I just know all the things
That words can't say
And the thoughts
That are there to stay
An acute sense of pain
Roaming around all alone
Again and again and again
On the borders that divide
Depressions and pride
Bleeding heart and burning soul
Fuelled by the secrets untold
The passion that kills
Everything inside me
An acute sense of pain
Within me always remains
FALL
Look back, there is all void
Look forward, there is all void
I'll take a step and I'll fall
There is nothing more to recall
My mind has blown
My memories lost
Somewhere in the drawer
Where they were locked
But I lost the key
And life means no more to me
And now I realize
That the earth I stand on
Is no more real
And as I get this feel
All my senses fade
Everything is fake
And so I fall with a cry
Into the void of self
I have lost everything
I have lost myself
WHO KNOWS?
Who knows me, when I am gone
Who cares where I go to
Even if someone asks me
Even myself I don't know
No more answers to give
No more tears to cry
The time has gone to think
The painful thoughts of you
Now the life itself
Is a big lesson for me
The teacher that teaches
What was missed by philosophy
Someone is knocking at my head
And I will let him in
The only one who has remained
In the darkest hours with me
As I come across all the things
That I used to think
Now I lock away the memories
And I prepare for the journey
To the darkest ends of soul
I DENY
I deny
I deny me
I deny you
My existence
Your existence
And everything that was
Between our souls
I deny that too
I deny your scent
That mesmerized me
I deny your eyes
That meant a world to me
Now I am dead
And so are you
Although we may live
A million years
For I deny life
Which was once lit
By the power of love
Which now I deny
And I don't cry
I deny my tears
And what else is there
All those silly thoughts?
I deny my head
That thought it all
I deny my eyes
That saw me fall
I deny me ears
That heard my screams
And I deny my voice
Which spoke of truth
For which they say
I was created
And I deny them too
I deny their gods
I deny their books
I deny it all
Yes, I deny
STARRY NIGHT
It was a starry night
A night like this
When you decided
That you were not you
And I decided
That I was not me
And we went home
A little late that night
To get a flavor of life
But what we could not see
Was the monster called boredom
Smiling in our fake smiles
Laughing in our hollow laughter
Hiding our dead pale faces
With a layer of cosmetics
And then a few hours later
We left each other
With that blood-thirsty monster
Helpless, that starry night
WORKERS' REVOLUTION
There were workers who lived in odds
They were simple, they got into fraud
They were told there's a pie in the sky
That's the sweetest of all the pies
They wanted a ladder to go high
And get themselves the pie
To build this ladder they were paid
There were rules their mill owners laid
They were told they were hired on wages
But they got worst as time turned pages
They were exploited by them all
Still they kept adding to their capital
They were hungry and they were weak
They were gloomy and they were sick
But this could not go on forever
So one day they all got together
Now they wiped the pie from the sky
For they knew it was miles too high
They captured their mill owner's office
And snatched all that they had missed
They broke the idea of capital
And distributed everything among them all
Then for themselves they worked together
Helping each other for ever
Together they had done the trick
And now their system was fixed
What's the deal how does it feel
There is only one solution
A true workers revolution
They paint your windows black
They tell you there's night outside
Don't believe in what they've said
Break the windows, get the sunlight
There are birds singing
There are bells ringing
These songs are for you
Life belong to you
Let the birds sing
Let the bells ring
Let the fresh air in
The sunlit room of your dreams
Through the window of your thought
There are flowers around you
Birds and bees surround you
You are almost there
DARKER IT GETS IN THE TOWN
Lost all hope
Lost all desire
Smelling insane
The soul on fire
The days are gone
The nights ahead
The devil's born
As we all fall dead
Now fears flow
Now minds blow
Darker it gets in the town
As the sun goes down
I've seen it all
Now I am bored
Of TV shows
Of sexy clothes
Of plastic smiles
Of seductive styles
Damn it to hell
Down to devil's cell
Now fears flow
Now minds blow
Darker it gets in the town
As the sun goes down
Down with the law
Down with the state
Down with the god
Money and fate
Down with the love
Down with romance
We are the crowd
At the devil's dance
Now fears flow
Now minds blow
Darker it gets in the town
As the sun goes down
We talk about fashion
We talk about cars
We talk about politics
We talk about wars
We talk about hotels
We talk about stars
We get food when we want it
We get shelter when we need it
We can buy anything we like to
Because we have got money to feed it
But away from our homes
On dirt and the stones
Live some poor souls away
If it is life as they say
But we care the least
We are busy having a feast
Of the modern life again
And we don't give a damn
To those who feel the pain
Who have to sleep
In the pouring rain
Of dead cold sorrows
With a poverty that grows
With their times ...
DREAMING
I was walking down the street
Looking for someone to meet
That's when my eyes
Looked up to the skies
For I heard the cries
I don't know what it was like
Just a giant too old to bite
Gliding with clouds
Falling down like a snowflake
Would anyone help me wake
Am I drinking from the tap
Is it mouse or is it rat?
Just another lovely girl
Walked to me and asked the way
Where strangers play
Their games of May
Then the giant fell down
Down on the ground
They came to him to rescue him
But he was never found
Oh ... is it just a dream
Oh ... am I still alive?
Spinning in the ocean of dreams
I have been through a spell
Of the strangest wilderness
From suicidal lows to ecstatic heights
And back again have been my nights
You tell me I live, how do you know
And how do you expect me to know
When its a dream that has to end
Face the facts forget the lies
Caress the truth before it dies
Straight into center of the sun
And through it into outer space
Flying helpless without a trace
Then I hide somewhere deep down
With worms kissing me under ground
I hate this life I love it still
This confusion I want to kill
Come on death, my only friend
Show me my way, show me my end
You find no satisfaction in what you have
You crave all your life for the have-nots
Running all over the land for a home
To have a brand new car each time to roam
Looking for food in abundance to eat
Wanting to walk proudly down the street
When you will get all that you want
And still you won't seem to be satisfied
When all the thrill in life would have died
Have you ever wondered what will you do?
Would you like to start life again
Start anew another journey of lust
Try to satisfy your eternal thirst
Where more you get means less to you
Or will you pack your bag and go to vacation
Wait for the end in one of your resorts
It was a useless struggle you will believe
You will close your eyes and silently leave
Deep beneath those starry eyes
Is a lovely soul that there resides
To talk to you, to write to you
Will always be wherever we are
Even though I whisper to the wind
Even though I write on the water
About the spaces between us
When both of us are poles apart
I'll remember you through my art
I'll write you, I'll paint you
I'll play all those minor scales
And listen to them weep and wail
Until they make for me a symphony
And I get my lonely soul set free
And in your dreams I drift away
No more in this world I stay
I will come to you across the land
And touch you like a gentle hand
When you will be in some deep dream
No, my self in that you will not see
Although to you it will just seem
Like morning light holding you
Like cool breeze embracing you
There will be no element of surprise
When sometimes you'll dream this way
It will be me dreaming you somewhere
To make for you a lovely day
STILL YOU THINK ITS FUN
You threw yourself in the dustbin
You laughed out when we cried
You said that you'll be fair with me
Then to yourself you lied
A million lies...
Still you think you won the game
Still you think you won
Now that we burn in our own hell
Still you think its fun
You promised that you'll never sell
All the flowers that I sent
And you promised you'll never tell
All the words that had meant
A lifetime to me...
Still you think you won the game
Still you think you won
Now that we burn in our own hell
Still you thinks its fun
Now we spin in the darkness
Somewhere in stinking caves
And all the fears that we had hidden
Now chase us deep down our graves
With the worms...
Still you think you won the game
Still you think you won
Now that we burn in our own hell
Still you thinks its fun
MADMAN PART I
You wake up in the morning
Watch the clear blue sky
You wonder what it takes
To make your lows high
You see your face in mirror
Nothing seems to have changed
On every average morning
It all looks so sane
But in the depths of night
Somewhere deep inside
In the sanitarium of mind
A shadow of you survives
Who gives you fear and pain
Who makes your head go insane
MADMAN PART II
This world is a stage
Where the cosmic joker directs
The eternal drama of insanity
With a bunch of madmen to act
And you on the stage
And you in the audience
You take a handful of pills
And a few more days you borrow
What will you do
If there comes no tomorrow
Life is dark, there is no light
I think I will stop here
Because I am getting bored tonight
Go home, lock your fears away
Because the madman in you
Is there to stay
Crystal falls down
Falls to the ground
The roughness and the hardness
Of the surface it has found
Tears apart its heart
And breaks it into
A million pieces
Yes it breaks it down
And no one cares
To collect it
No one dares
To caress it
Or to feel the pain
Or to see its depths
Being lost to the ground
Never to be found
Now the crystal
Has broken apart
And the crystal
Has lost its heart
But the pain remains
Because it reflected
All the pain
That it contained
Into the space
The empty skies
Maybe some god
Will see its light
Will hear it cry
And feel the pain
Of the shattered crystal
Misty mountains rider glide
Upon the clouds and see
The shadows of the goblins
Fly...fly...fly...
His horse is tired
To the world he lied
And he went outside
His cozy warm house
In search of stars
Fighting those wars
With himself
And the misty mountains
Cruel winds
Pastel skies
And strangers passing by
All see him go
On...and on...and on
The misty mountains rider
Slide across the seas
And see the pain
Falling like rain
On his house's window
In the dark night
What a sad sight
Misty mountains whisper
The good old songs to him
The songs of love
The songs of life
Only he can hear
Not tells ... he fears
They'll kill his horse
And make his corpse
Because he is the only
Lonely ... misty mountains rider
Standing in the corner
Of the darkest of the streets
Strangers passing see my stand
All alone on this piece of land
Like statue ... or a shadow
That has absorbed everything
From sadness of the night
Into its darkness
No more sweetness
Tears all dried
All night I cried
Without my tears
I just shed my fears
Standing in the corner
Watching strange shadows
And ghosts of memories
Glide across the street
Like shadows with red eyes
Falling from dark skies
They stare at me
Eyes glare at me
They sing me the songs
That I wrote some day
Sarcastically
They are all around me
They all surround me
I am trapped in the corner
Of the darkest street in town
I enter the hall
The empty hall
See the silence
In a corner
Standing quiet
Like in a coffin
Waiting to decay
I see u there
Oh my illusion
My confusion
Dressed in black
I see u bleed
I try to help
I want to heal
The wounds you have
I take your hand
Its burning like hell
I see your face
Its cold like a prisoner
Waiting in some cell
For sentence of death
I see you smile
An empty smile
Tears in your eyes
They seem to say
That you've been through
Wilderness and pain
That you were soaked
While you were running
In the poisoned rain
For some shelter
That long dark night
I could see fears
Their deep red eyes
Were shining bright
I talk to u, you say
I don't want you
You just go away
I see shadows all around
Dancing to some ancient sound
And words and music
Play all around
Like waves of fear
That flow in my mind
So I leave your hand in sorrow
Because I know
You have killed tomorrow
That could shine bright
That could give us light
Why did u do it?
Oh my illusion
My confusion...
I felt so lonely
I felt I was only
One in the universe
Sitting all alone
On an ancient stone
Watching the stars
Healing my scars
What I did miss
Was love's first kiss
That feel of sadness
Deep in my soul
Like falling leaf
My heart did toss
Tumble and toll
Not before long
I realized I have
Got to be strong
And I feel the shadow
Of loneliness with me
Was it the friend
That I was missing
I felt a strange wave
Of happiness to save
My dying self
Dancing alone
With the loneliness
I left that stone
For the first caress
Our blood fuels the world on fire
Under the smoke burns a desire
Red stains all over the ground
Life executed hanging by a wire
Maniacs run; each other they stab
Printed papers fill their bags
As they laugh and shout and cry
Strange figures and crazy maps
They die, lose hopes, lose lives
Kill themselves with their knives
Yet they breath and run like hell
They don't live they just survive
Frozen veins don't let us bleed
Fills our brains with hate and greed
We live we kill we die we stink
What we want is not what we need
The crowd goes on and on in flames
Blood keeps freezing in their veins
I want to die, can't stand any more
Can't live to watch all that remains
STARS
Stars that shine
Stars that light
Some lovely eyes
Some starry nights
Universe within
Universe out there
Spinning like a whirlpool
In the middle of nowhere
I look at the sky
And dream away
I travel light years
I cannot stay
Stars can stare
Stars can scare
Stars can smile
Stars can care
I walk across the shadows
Of the past to forget
All the hard moments
That my soul still regrets
I look at those stars
There in the skies
I look at those stars
There in lovely eyes
Stars are winking
Stars are twinkling
Stars are smiling
Stars are bright
Stars are dancing
In my endless night
You lit up the candles
In my mind again
With the words you said
You washed all the pain
While you were there
You were everywhere
And now that you go
I see you somewhere
Deep inside my soul
Smiling while you say
You know the words untold
Now it seems to me
You I always knew
You were always there
That I think is true
We could have our dreams
We could dream a lot
Now we can dream together
Fill each empty slot
In our minds and souls
Now we can feel complete
We can have the faith
That some day we'll meet
And dream together
Like we did tonight
When you were there
All that lovely while
You gave my life
A reason to smile
What shall I do now
Where will I run to
All my dreams have faded
And I can no more see you
Now the stars no more shine
Your dreams are no more mine
I would hate to fade away
But in this world I cannot stay
Lost all faith lost all desire
I will burn out in my own fire
This confusion ... it kills me
Doesn't let my soul get free
And the fear that I exist
And the doubt that I don't
Make me think I have missed
All the dreams I had owned
So as always I pack up
All my thoughts I wrap up
Walk silently into a dream
Where many times I have been
Take shelter from the cold rain
I never want to wake up again
I'LL FADE INTO YOU
I sit eclipsed in a corner
With shadows of pain around
Hands trembling as I give
Words to fears I have found
Remembering all the lies
Too pure too be true
In my darkest hours
I'll fade into you
On these roads I wander
With my wilderness and pain
Wondering where to hide myself
From this cold and cruel rain
Getting lost somewhere
Without any clue
In my darkest hours
I'll fade into you
To holy water I melt myself
Flow helpless in a stream
Till I reach the ocean of life
And sink slowly like a dream
Deep down in this ocean
Dark and deep and blue
In my darkest hours
I'll fade into you
In a void I find myself
As at distant lights I stare
And then my mind goes blank
Feels like I'm lost somewhere
Hollowed by your dreams
Not knowing what to do
In my darkest hours
I'll fade into you
We,
The believing disbelievers
Lost all faith
Lost ourselves
Our minds our souls
And we wandered together
Yet all alone
In the strangest bond
Binding us all
In a caravan
Looking for someone
Or was it something
That may show us the light
In the darkest night
That may lead us the way
To an unwanted paradise
That no one has seen
Where no one has been
We,
The believing disbelievers
Were looking for truth
Were looking for faith
That we lost somewhere
Within or out there
Looking for souls
Their silent screams
Coming from the farthest
Ends of universe
Coming from the deepest
Depths of our selves
We,
The believing disbelievers
Wandered for long
Never knew the place
Where we belong
Till we were all tired
Of the wilderness and pain
Of running away
From the fury of rain
That we could see
Raining at a distance
But we could hear
Its sounds within
Damping our souls
With pure cold poison
We,
The believing disbelievers
Had just lost our god
But had found ourselves
In the road to truth
As we looked inside
And we laughed at lies
That lived within
Till they all left
Clearing the way
To our own pure light
To our own souls
Where we found our God
Smiling as if not us but He
Had found ourselves again
We,
The believing disbelievers
Were safe back home...
Absorbing all the tropical warmth
With some dreams my mind was stormed
Smiling to some unknown song
Not knowing the land where I belong
Walked on a strange road to nowhere
Stranger with a dream of somewhere
From deep down under the ground
I heard a low and lovely sound
Of streams of water, of oceans deep
Of lonely souls who often weep
High on the sky saw a vision sketched
A wandering thought on horizon stretched
Smiles within found words to heal
To melt away all the eyes of steel
Into tears more precious than pearls
Like water in deep blue lakes swirls
Strangely vaguely my dreams smiled
Traveled in my mind a million miles
They took shape from an obscured shadow
When moon looked in from my window
Waiting for a dream that may come true
I closed my eyes and thought of you
Let's paint this dying life
In cold shades of gray
Because I've lost all my colors
Since I saw you fade away
Writing these verses
Writing these songs
The day so bright
Gets dark and gloomy
I turn out the light
And hide in my darkness
Watch a silent movie
Of a past of wilderness
Smile at the actors
Cry at the dialogues
A dream long forgotten
Peeped through my window
With a sad look in the eyes
Like evening autumn skies
Gazed at me and smiled
A smile that can be seen
Through time's many miles
Talked to me of memories
In silence that silently stood
Of a person who was different
Of someone, misunderstood
It was dressed in velvet
That shone under the moon
And it seemed to me as if
It will not go away soon
So I tried to draw the curtains
Hide in darkness of my room
But my own darkness overshadowed
The peace I wanted to bloom
As I tuned my back to it
Hid my face in my pillow
I noticed it was soaked
With tears once shed
Of dreams that had bled
Over these strange years
So I closed my eyes and thought
Of the memories of my past
I had a vision that my curtains
Gave room to the light
And a sad strange darkness
Lit up my lonely night
The dream slowly walked in
It gently held my hand
And together we flew
To some faraway land
I can see you are here
I can see you are there
And when you come to me
Like fragrance in the air
You are just everywhere
With eyes that shine
Like the brightest of days
Like the clear blue skies
Like the deep blue lakes
Spinning in your dreams
You know I am left nowhere
Like fragrance in the air
You are just everywhere
To a shelter that was, I walk on
To find my house burning down
I see the image of joy
Standing alone I hear it cry
From a window looking out there
Thinking about a lost somewhere
Silently it stands with shadows
Of flames dancing as fear grows
Orange light, sounds of fire
I see the image of desire
Enraged it was as it had grown
Standing still like carved stone
Flames kissing its bare feet
Thinking how will the ends meet
The sky is vast, dark and deep
Silent clouds hang...no more weep
On a tree sits a lonely bird
Sings a song of pain unheard
Trees stand like a holy procession
Majestic silence is their possession
Witnessing the house burning down
The night does not make any sound
A million thoughts and memories
Burn down beneath a gentle breeze
With grave thoughts I turn around
Having lost what my life had found
I walk on alone to some other lands
With a hollowed soul and empty hands
It’s been a long time
Since I have dwelled
In the dark and empty halls
Hidden beneath steel walls
It’s been a long time
Since I've heard the echoes
Of my own words
Of thoughts unheard
It’s been a long time
Since I have cried
My heart out
Because my tears have dried
It’s been a long time
Since I have seen illusions
Dancing around me
Adding to my confusions
It’s been a long time
Since I have really smiled
Perhaps the happiness within
A long time back died
It’s been a long time
Since I had a lovely sunset
Since I had a serene sunrise
The stars shine no more
Clear blue skies disappear
Beneath dark clouds of fear
It’s been a long time
Since I lost my brain
Since I lost my head
It's been a long time
Since I have been dead
Into the darkness
Out of the light
A taste of wilderness
Of my lonely solo flight
Around me purple clouds
Strangely they move
I am going round and round
Spinning to a magical groove
A dream unseen
Shines faraway
Darkness of night I've been
Away from light of the day
A silence around me
Cries and laughs out loud
It asks me to see
Behind the darkest of clouds
An illusion of light
That will never be
Its darker than the night
Where no one can see
I can see a dream die
Like a shooting star
Was it a final try
To win a long lost war
So I close my eyes
Try to hold tears inside
Can't say any last goodbye
My tired soul just died
Into the darkness I walk on
Into the silence I dwell
Can’t see any dream
Can’t hear any song
Under some strange spell
Illusions of light
Phantoms of life
Hallucinate me through
This cold dark night
Affinity within
Grows like a black hole
Till it swallows my mind
Till it swallows my soul
And my tears dry out
Can’t scream or shout
So I sit in a corner
Turn out the lights
Hide in empty darkness
Shadows of nights
And I think no more
I just stare deep inside
The places visited before
Where my soul did reside
And I find it so hollow
I sleep with my fears
This night did swallow
My self with my tears
I am standing far away from me
And I call myself
I don’t seem to hear
I don’t seem to care
Don’t even look back
Just walk away towards the see
Was it someone or was it me
I can’t tell, I stand alone
With my illusions sinking
With the sunset on the west
As always trying my best
To hold my tears back
And let it be
I see my shadow faraway
I see it fade into evening
Fading into the night
Into the dark
Out of my sight
I think again to call myself
And as I try to think aloud
My words don’t seem
To come out right for me
So turn around walk away
Missing another part
Of my soul again
And yes, for another time
I have surrendered to my pain
And so life raises its eyes
Looks deep in empty autumn skies
As some strange silent tides
Somewhere inside my soul fall and rise
I woke up from a wanted dream
Watched shadows of night scream
Without a sound and stared
As if I had never cared
So deep in space my thoughts wander
As upon my own words I ponder
Pause for a while and look back
Lost somewhere on unknown track
Should I care as I dream along
As someone somewhere writes this song
What about the thoughts unheard
What about the visions blurred
I sail away to some unknown land
Our of fears, holding some dream’s hand
As you whisper to me that dreams don’t last
And break away the spell you had cast
I close my eyes for another dream
Only to find darkness within
Try to wake up but I am caught
In the whirlpool of thoughts at last
So I let go, spin deep down
As I get yet another drown
Deep blue darkness takes my hold
Says to me the words untold
CRYSTAL DEPTHS
I am a crystal, so clear and deep
But waiting to get my ground
Search in my depths and you are lost
In passion’s fire and death’s frost
In another world so mystifying
Full of fantasy and yet relying
On the crystal depths of me
I am discovering the wonders
That deep inside me I own
That I still haven’t shown
To anyone who lives around
To anyone who has not found
The crystal depths I have
And I am free, I am not bound
To share in this cold dead town
The crystal depths I have
THE FORGETFUL ONE
I am a forgetful person
Someday I will forget you too
But that day will be the day
When they all will slay
Me and I will forget to live
When my skin would be blue
You will know I was true
But you will walk on in your life
And then you will forget me too
Maybe I forget
In a better way than you
THE RAIN
When the rain pours down
It’s not just outside my house
But deep inside this soul of mine
Deeper than the deepest forest of pine
Like a crystal put in pouring rain
Shines and looks so strange
When you look inside its depths
You are lost in another rainy day
And a second and a third
And many more rains that follow
The deeper you go
The darker it gets
In these crystal depths I own
Where rains have blown
Away all fears and doubts
Would you like to go deep?
Would you light my darkness,
And with your soul’s eyes peep
Inside this lost soul of mine
BURIED ALIVE
I was dead centuries gone
Not to live again some day
Buried so dark and deep
Inside the grave of myself
Satisfied in this world so dark
And deep I used to play and be
With darkness and silence
Ah, that meant a world to me
Still I had not heard the crying
Of my soul alive, but dying
I was numb and dumb and blind
Having no light to find
One day I had a vision of light
The basis of all life
And heard a silent scream
At this glorifying beam
From the glittering and alive depths
Of my soul deeper than my grave
It wanted to break free
For all these centuries
And wanted to take me
Away in the world of glory
To me it was all silence, but it
Had shattered my mind somewhere
I heard many silent calls
Of pouring rain and waterfalls
To come to them and search my soul
But how could I go when I was a slave
So deeply trapped in my grave
So dark and quiet and deep
Too dark for me to wake up from this
Eternal accursed sleep
FOLLOW THE STAR
I’ll follow the farthest star
On the horizon of reality
And fight this holy war
To get my soul free
From the darkest regions
Of hollowness, of evil
To the brightest zone of truth
I’ll touch every limit I can
Go to places untouched by man
And the trouble will begin
When I am there
Torn and tired but willing to go on
I’ll follow no one because
By then I will be
Brighter than my destiny
And the day will come when
My destiny itself will walk to me
BRIGHTEST STAR
Look at the brightest star
On the horizon and see
If it glitters more than your eyes
It will blink and twist and toss
Too jealous to survive
Forget me not, you never see
What in life you mean to me
The biggest reality
Of life, of love, of everything
That I have come across
In this world too crazy
To understand you and me
BIGGEST REALITY
I am the biggest reality
On the face of this earth
I have my own identity
Which changes every day
One day I kill myself
The other day I cure
I am insane and I am crazy
At this point I am sure
I will lose the game some day
And that day will be the end
Of everything, even eternity
I am the banished Lucifer
I am the God Almighty
Of my own reality
I worship myself and contradict
My heart’s very own verdict
I sue, I prosecute, I advocate
And myself I judge my case
In my favor, yet against me
All of it simultaneously
I love, I hate, I sympathize
With myself, after I kill
All my desires with great skill
And then cry and laugh over
My own grave in faraway lands
I lie to myself, yet I am true
I bury myself and with intense grief
It’s me who whispers “Rest in peace”
Then I wash my bloodstained hands
With warm tears that I own
There were thunders and storms
That had mercilessly blown
Away my image from me
WALLS
I have been busy throughout these years
Building walls around me out of fears
Of losing my only treasure, my tears
To this hungry and cruel world
And a first and a second and a third
Brick by brick, row by row
These walls are rising high
Now I can’t see around myself
These walls have covered me all
And I know one day I will fall
Tired enough to go on any more
By then these walls would have gone
Higher, still high and high
And then with a deep sigh
I will fall down on my knees
Unable to see the clear blue sky
And lose all my tears to the ground
I’ll lose myself never to be found
Again in this game of walls and tears
Of all these shadows of my deep fears
SILENT MUSIC
Would you like to play
The music inside me tonight
Would you touch the strings
Of my soul and give me
The everlasting light
And whenever you pass by
In my mind a bell rings
And the singer inside me sings
For you a lovely song
That you tell me you always long
To hear and be lost
In the depths of night
Where candles of love light
Our hearts, our minds, our souls
And we are gone together
To a dreamland for ever
INFERNO
I am in hell, I am in fire
Inside me I have a burning desire
Inferno, Inferno everywhere
In this hell, I am a stone
Charred and compressed
Confused and depressed
I am feeling cold as ice
Because the flame inside me
Burns so high and bright
It is as intense as it can be
Inferno, Inferno, I will burn you too
And when I am done
I will get through
And it’s my own flame, not you
That will make a gem out of me
So clear, so deep, so true
You, the place of burning fire
When you depress me
You help refine my depths
Purify myself and clear all debts
That I owe to my soul
And when I am pure and crystal clear
Inferno, Inferno, center of fear
I will laugh at you and will see
You losing the game to me
SHATTERED
Before every devastating storm
The weather seems to be so calm
Like when I see you I am so cool
But deep inside me a blind fool
Always laughs, always cries
Dances alone in painful joy
No one will ever understand
No one on this vast land
That the waves from my heart
Blow a storm inside me somehow
That stumbles me then and now
That shatters myself and I
Though standing proud and tall
With a silent scream, faint and fall
And I am not as strong as it seems
All my thoughts and all my dreams
Have shattered me and its only you
Who can help me get through
This situation that I love and hate
And remember its never too late
To understand someone who
So deeply is in love with you
MUMMIFIED
I am a prehistoric legend
That has so long survived
Because my friends never buried
My body, but just mummified
Hoping some day I’ll live again
And do the things I loved to do
And they put along with me
All my feelings in a coffin
In the pyramid of my self
And then one day they took me back
And did put me in a shelf
Now here I stand stuffed
In a museum so crowded
Where I am surrounded
By the fools I hate to know
But I can’t do anything
Because I am stuffed
My eyes are open forever
And my hands tied together
To look at them all who
Look at me and talk to me
And always have to say
Something in their own way
Still none of them can feel
The light in my dead eyes
And a soul that still survives
In this body stuffed and mummified
And they have placed my feelings
Along with me
For all the world to see
What a fool I was to be
What a fool I was to live
With the feelings to forgive
Even those who mummified
Me and buried alive
My everything
Even a right to do and say
The things in my own way
COLLAPSE
Collapse all the heavens and hell
Look at me I have dreams to sell
Collapse all this world with me
Collapse you all, can’t you see
My ideals break, my dreams shatter
And with a storm all papers scatter
On which some lies were written
Look at me I have just been smitten
By all my dreams and all my thoughts
And now I am cold as winter’s frost
Break away hell and set devil free
To be with those loved by me
Now I am falling like snowflakes
Tired and torn and as cold as can be
And there is no one to be with me
To the bright ends of eternity
Where shattered hearts get eternal rest
After getting through this tormenting test
Where dreams shatter and ideals break
And in this game of give and take
Called life by some optimist
Let me tear away the list
Of all the names that I once knew
Of all the vows that were untrue
RAINBOW
You fill the valley of my mind
You are the one I had to find
You are the rainbow you color
From one horizon to another
The dark side of my soul
At the end of every rainbow
Legend says lies some gold
And this legend is as old
As the lady love itself
And there is a legend untold
That I have to unfold
As days come and go
A day will come when I
Will drift slowly over the rainbow
Of the words you say in silence
And reach the farthest ends
Of your mind and your soul
And get the legendary gold
That lies there for me
But this day may last me years
And may cost me many tears
Before I get to the soul that you
Hold in your words so true
DEPTHS OF LAKE
Let me go deep, deeper, still deep
In the depths of your eyes
Deeper than the deepest lake
Sparkling in the moonlight
When shadows of the night
Deepen the deep blue tint
And moonlight sprinkles over it
To make some moments immortal
Then I love to be with you
And drown myself in your eyes
And to breathe I never try
Because I know I have to die
In the depths of deep blue lake
And the music of your words
Comes to me as a night bird
Breaks silence of the night
And with you I drift away
As all holy angels play
The music of love for us
BURN ME
Why don’t you burn me
And with your flame turn me
To ashes that fly away
With winds that never stay
Maybe you are afraid
That in this risky parade
You will hurt yourself
With your own flame
And then you will have
No one left to blame
But remember that these ashes
Will always remain restless
And move away with wind
Never to get peace and rest
Searching for you
In all dimensions of east and west
KILL MY DREAMS
I want to kill all my dreams
Yes I want to kill them all
They show me everything
And always disturb me
Is there anyone?
Is there anything?
That is more disturbing
Than my strange dreams
I want to break free
Wake up and see
The true picture of reality
But they always get a hold on me
And turn my life to misery
I’ll stab myself with a dagger
And kill all my dreams
Turn absolutely mechanical
No feelings, no dreams, nothing
Nothing to get out of nothing
ALL ALONE
Today I was left all alone
Like a diamond that has shone
For centuries in dull stones
And with a heavy heart
And with aching bones
I let myself fall in my chair
And this moment is not so rare
For me, as it always happens
When I am rooted deep in myself
I am always left all alone
Yes, when I am what I am
Then I am with myself alone
OVERWRITE
I write my name on paper
Then overwrite it by yours
And the practice goes on
For many, many hours
Till I get a blot on ink
And my heart begins to sink
As this dark spot resembles
The dark side of the moon
I know you’ll go away soon
And leave me here writing
Your name and mine
Till the end of time
NIGHT AND MEMORIES
The night outside is getting dark
As the rain pours down heavily
I look out at the shadows of rain
Crying inside with absolute pain
Remembering the days when I
With confusions was going insane
And many phases came and went
And may storms did put an end
To all my fury and all my rage
As time turned my life page by page
I was left all alone with myself
And I was nothing more
Than an old book left in bookshelf
A closed chapter, forgotten
Then disappointment covered me
And losing belief I could see
There is no light, no ecstasy
Losing it all, I lost myself
And with shadows of terrible fears
Of losing myself in game of life
I washed the night away with tears
That I had saved for all these years
I am the fading last omen
Of a once-glorious lost civilization
Of an abandoned culture
Left in this place for a test
To see if I can do my best
I am the chosen one, and the rest
Is nothing but a dream once dreamt
What’s in dignity, what’s in honor?
And what exactly is need of the hour?
Should I keep my faith alive and be
An alien in this society
Sometimes all feelings get so lonely
Nothing to care for, nothing to share
Still I am proud and glorified
In my own altar crucified
Hoping one day my real self will
Come to me and help me kill
All the fears and all the pain
To be with my soul always
To be with me on all my ways
END OF EVERYTHING
Whenever I look deep into those eyes
All the moments that we have shared
Are together playing there
I can see them well sequenced
So tell me true oh my friend
Is this the end of everything?
Because when someone is about to die
The same crazy thing applies
And like a movie he can see
All the moments of the past
With the life that doesn’t long last
So tell me true oh my friend
If it is something I can’t see
Or is it some strange mystery
WHIRLPOOL OF DREAMS
The whirlpool of dreams is all around me
Its swirling hisses always surround me
And deeper and deeper it takes me down
To some new world to some new town
But I don’t think I will ever drown
In this whirlpool of dreams because I can see
There is always a world of reality
To take me out of my wonderland
Out of my dreams, in real world my friend
WORDS HANGING ALMOST DEAD
When I take my pen and paper
And try to write something
A feeling overpowers me
Which always wants me to be
Non-existent, like some misfit
Still I write and stick to it
And after some time has passed
This storm vanishes at last
And as the wind outside blows
The dim candle light shows
To me the words that I write
I always end up with meaningless
Unfamiliar words dancing together
Spread on the paper from ever
Such situations I have often had
Words hanging around me almost dead
TONIGHT
Tonight I’ll put my world on sale
So would you like to hear this tale
Of miseries, sorrows and depressions
Tinted with rebellions and aggressions
I have fought the war too long
But I am too tired and no more strong
I always knew that I will lose
But to take any help I still refuse
I lived my life, will die my death
And all my dreams have fallen dead
Hoping back home I will carry them
Sometimes I thought about it, but then
Something got a hold on me
Never ever setting me free
To do something that I would like
But I am put between a hammer
And a anvil to strike and shatter
Everything that belongs to me
Now I’ll spin in the darkness of night
Nothing to find, no life, no light
And sleep with my dreams forever
Bury me deep, I’ll never be back
To spend more time in life’s trap
A CRY FOR FREEDOM
Tear me into a thousand pieces
And feed me to all those wolves
Who want my blood
Who want my life
Tell them to smash my flesh
And suck my blood out of it
Ask them to take the last trace
Of life from me and win this race
Of all those who hate me
Only because they can not see
Me around no more for my
Eccentric ways, they often try
To take all my dreams together
Make me numb or dead forever
Tell them if I die I will be
Even more liberal and free
Each piece of mine will raise
A cry for freedom and praise
All those who sacrificed for it
And at my silent messages to all
All those dictators will fall
To the ground and vanish
Or run away in panic
MUSIC OF THE HILLS
You are a jingle, music of the hills
When you talk to me, I lose all my will
And surrender all my senses to you
To light up my life and get through
The desert of this world with sweet
Melodies that you ring in my ears
And in return you take all my tears
That I always kept for lonely nights
Whenever your memories give me light
And your words come lightly ringing
In my mind like a sweet bird singing
To the morning breeze and the sun
Of all the seasons I have lost forever
To my mind’s rough and cruel weather
SLOW POISONING
This dark and lonely night called life
Is killing me like a slow poison
That I can feel the pain all the time
Yet it doesn’t take this life of mine
Slow poisoning I’ll call it when
It burns inside and I can’t run
Away from it and turn by turn
All my belongings become victim
Of this dark and depressing age
As book of life turns each page
I’m getting old before its to be
Because the dark future I can see
It will ruin my dreams, all the glitter
In my eyes, and a storm will shatter
All the ideals that I keep
The time will take away all freshness
From my face and will surely depress
The deepest ends of my tires soul
And my story will remain untold
To all the world to get a lesson out
I’ll surrender to this death and shout
A word for time and a word for death
When I’ll be no more than a myth
A PRAISE FOR EVIL
Give me your light and I’ll tell you
How to use it, how to get through
Wait for me when you are lost in dark
In the night where hounds of hell bark
Surrender yourself to me my friend
I’ll show you the way to your destiny
Leading to the limits of eternity
Ride over lightning that kills
And talk like thunder that shatters
I’ll kill you, take your soul out
Twist your mind with pain and shout
All praise to the hell that burns
To bless all these charms to heavens
And all praise to Lucifer who lives
To signify God to all these nations
SUICIDE NOTE
So you call me crazy, hate my looks
I am sure I am out of your good books
I am insane, I am depressed, I am all that
And maybe I should hate myself
I will kill myself one day and let
Free my soul and all my intellect
And fill the world with strange thoughts
And then they will remember someone
Who was insane, who was a fool
And who didn’t know how to act cool
With looks so mean and hands unclean
I used to hide my crazy face
And cry with pain all night long
Used to play with my strange soul
Always wanting complete control
Over myself, over my world
Never found the thing called love
I looked for it in foreign lands
I looked for it inside myself
And it all was enough to understand
There is no place in here for love
This would burns on hatred’s stove
I want to break free, fly like a dove
I’ll leave your world with a shot and cry
Goodbye you people, last goodbye
NO MORE DREAMS TO SELL
Today you were murdered by my hand
I banished you from my dreamland
Now I’ll walk alone in this lonely night
Now I have no fear, nothing of fright
Now I’ll fly alone, higher than before
Now I can have a heavenly flight
I have no burden, no one to be
A rock in my way, a passionate sea
I killed you because that’s all I could do
You were a liar, always untrue
You were always a complex paradox
You always deserved a fate like this
I’ll forget you now, never to miss
You in my lonely nights no more
I’ll cry no more, I’ll die no more
Go away with all that you promised
You were never the one I had wished
I am out of your burning hell
Look, I have no more dreams to sell
CENTURIES
We met after centuries, we could never feel
Each other’s emotions like we used to do
You looked into my eyes and I into yours
But our visions fizzled and never got through
There was no warmth of friendship left
No black hole in my eyes, no deep lake in yours
No feeling of the breeze of the day we met
The first time, the evening I will never forget
No fire of passion in eyes, no heat of love
Of the nights we spent thinking of each other
No pool of tears we treasured the day we left
Each other, no agony, no more pain we felt
Just stared at each other in search of the love
We lost to time, and lost to life years gone
The years that killed the love that was born
The love that grew up with time only to vanish
Into the dark nights and dreams that shattered
I tool your hand in mine like I used to do
But it was cold as ice and dead and blue
We never said a word, just stared to find
The dreams we lost in each other’s blank mind
And I cried no more as you left me again
Because I felt no loss, no more pain
And I watched your dress float with breeze
And the red evening sun started to freeze
All my distorted thoughts where they hung
I had become senseless and numb
Listen to the words forgotten
Echoes of the spells you had cast
Feelings of the smiles that visited
Sensations of dreams not yet lost
So please excuse me while
I tell you how I am feeling
I have lived and I have died
And who can say I am living
I sit alone in a darkened room
In an easy chair and wonder
Going back in time I think
Over your words as I ponder
Tears flow like water, crystal clear
Melting from the ice of the mask
That I had worn when you left
On my mind and my thoughts
I think of you as you fade away
Deeper and deeper in time
And I know although you were
You are no longer mine
Life will go on, it always does
Time will heal the scars
But forever in my lonely life
In my nights, looking at stars
I will think of you as I always do
I will dream of you forever
And I would love you even more
Than I would if we were together
In flowers of the season
In my little reason
When thoughts are set free
On every single tree
I see bare branches
I see falling leaves
In every lovely smile
I see pain and fears
In every single while
I think of dried tears